The forgotten voice, The song of truth

New favourite TV ad

2007-06-03T14:52:00.000+08:00

the above gatsby ad with 木村拓哉 (Takuya Kimura)... cant get the song outta my head now. haha...

& Lucky Star らき☆すた simply owns!! its lame & pure wicked... total insanity.. for those who haven watch the anime go dl it or watch it in youtube...lol

I just love stuffs that give ppl the （￣ω￣) face... =D

K-K-K-K-K-K-K-ing..............

2007-05-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

actually this post suppose to be for days ago, but for some unknown reasons blogspot got some "engineering" errors. wadever...

Some random K songs that I cant get out of my mind:

Cant wait for the next & future K-sessions...

2007-05-02T14:19:00.000+08:00

I know i'm not in a position to say or ask for anything.......

but I just have one thing to say:

"Gimme some more time, & I'll talk to you again...."

2007-05-01T17:54:00.000+08:00

have been thinking abt alot of things. Too much? Too little? i really dunno. Somehow i think i finally understand why one of my closest buddy Kimhau wants to go out more often with our clique recently. In the company of close frens whom u can trust, u let your feelings heard. they will always be there for u. & most imptly, when u are occupied doin stuffs that all of us enjoy doin, u forget abt your misery, even its just for that moment. its a form of escapism, just like drinking... at least the pain is lessen by lessening the time where u suffer alone.... thanks to all my frens who ask me out this week, cos i really need them. paiseh to Kimhau, GB & Zhiwei, i cant meet u all today, just came home only, & oredi had a mahjong session tonight. I'll meet u all other days.

oso glad that my sis asked me out today. its been a long time since we went shopping oredi, & a long time since I had such a fantastic meal. maybe eating is another form of escapism, i dunno, But i just enjoy the meal throughly. & i bought a bag & a jacket which i needed, so it was great.

On bus, my sis realised i was daydreaming. in fact i was thinking of stuffs that happen recently. I just told her that i was tired, & need some sleep. True. tired physically, as well as emotionally. I've been sleeping alot recently too, not bcos i was really sleepy, but at least time past faster, & i wun think so much. But even dreams & nightmares haunt my afternoon sleep. I hope i dun go crazy soon...

To the one whom this msg is meant for: If u still care, pls get your acts sorted & show that u care b4 we meet, otherwise, dun bother showing yourself.

2007-04-30T18:05:00.000+08:00

exam is over, but more often than not i feel even more sian than b4 (or even during) exams. forget it. some things the harder u try, the worst it gets. its just like a mosquito. the more u try to catch it, the more it wan to fly away & try to bite u back at the same time. why not just let it bite until it is satisfied & it will go away eventually. An analogy of mosquito to problem.....

So why not just enjoy life as it is... its holiday! if things are meant to come back, they will. no pt trying so hard & make all our lives miserable. lets relax & do the things that we like; something that I & those who had just finished their exams truly deserve....

Yeah! Kbox & mahjong this week... & hoping to get my CNC 3 game real soon.

Have been in craze recently for old songs, all kinds, be it chinese, english, japanese or even techno. ok not really old, just those songs that define our pri/sec sch life. partly influenced by chang on his blog & my sister. So here are some:

Chinese:

English:

Japanese:

Techno:

Exams OVER!!!!

2007-04-26T17:16:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! 試験が終わる！！Finally ended my last paper just now... Feeling lighter than before (oso bcos i lost weight during exam period - not enuff slp + STRESS....)

Goin for mahjong later @ weihan's hse.... another sleepless...............BUT happy night!!! WAHAHAH!!!!!

Gotta get some sleep now....really tired & drained....

Those still taking exams, GD luck!! がんばって！

2007-04-12T17:53:00.000+08:00

Shall update a bit 1st cos the next probable update should be after exam which is near end of month......

5 more days to exam... Today's 2 quizzes really wake me up & burns the fire in me. Just passed only for one, & toopid careless mistakes on my part for the other. damn...... maybe the quizzes are right on time to really set the pace for me to REALLY mug till there's no tml.....

Things to look forward to after exam: Holiday (duh~), job (for income), WWE Wrestlemania VCD, Command & Conquer 3 Tiberium War, Mahjong Session, KTV/K-box session, Passing my IPPT (hopefully), ICT (ya u heard me right, long time no see old army mates la!!), Go on Holiday (if planned), & of cos spending more time with family, frenz & loved one...

Here is a grp photo of my current Jap Level 2 Class:

..............................................................

& for fun's sake, some random southpark version of WWE wrestlers:

Put your cursor over them for their name....

2007-03-29T01:58:00.000+08:00

Sorry peeps i realised i haven been updating my blog for a long time le... busy with many stuffs..

So many things had happen since my last post which is more than a month ago, i dunno where to start, some things i shall not elaborate or mention here..

Realised i've lost contact with many old frens, & haven been in contact with current ones. Really miss the gd o' days, from pri sch to esp sec sch, jc, army blar blar....

To Chang, hope u are doin well in UK...

There are many things in life which i feel i really sux at... i dunno how to say. I'm not the guy I used to be or thought I'm. At times i wish to go back to the person i used to be..

I saw a phrase from fren's nick which i think is very meaningful. she said:
"Dont do or say things to others that u wouldnt want others to do or say to you.."

& from another fren's nick：
“好人只会让人欺负"
sometimes i really think gd ppl always get taken for granted. thats why gd ppl are call "好人", which means 好（难做的）人. 好人难做...

Sorry if I sound too 感性.

Aint gonna whine abt studies here although exam is in 2 weeks time. Everyone (in this case every student) also has their own problems so lets just move on...

I shld be more focus on things & not let external factors affect me... that used to be (or closer to) the person i was.

will update more when time & energy allows..

2007-02-16T00:15:00.001+08:00

elaine sent this email to all our project grp members:
how...how...nice of u...lol..

CNY coming!!! not really that excited abt bai nian(except ang bao), but rather, I need the break from sch...I really need a break...

thats why my nick in msn: 宿題とテストが沢山あります。　疲れました。　僕は休みが欲しいです。　でも、時間がありません。

which means: (I) have many homework & test. Tired. I want (to go) holiday. But, (I) do not have time.

2007-02-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

sunday:
went sentosa!! i forget when is the last time i was there. The previous most significant one i rem was before army, with chang, sw, kl, gb & that was the time guan wen was still goin out with us... went underwater world & dolphin lagoon, but weather was freaking hot~ It was an emotionally rollercoaster day. But when all was said & done, all is nice & good. I need to be more understanding at times too...

monday:
bad bad day... studied for mat sci quiz until 2+ previous night, then 830 lab in the morning. the lab with lab report somemore, with 2 nimrods who put down others just to "up" themselves, & basically just dunno when to stop... talking abt pinning insecurities onto others...well... mat sci quiz was shit, ask questions not from notes, questions that require just pure memory work...

today:
unhealthy lifestyle at its "best". 2 samosa for breakfast, Mcdonald brunch at ard 11, char kway tiao teabreak, & roasted duck later for dinner.... guilty~~~~~~~~~~
Jap lesson getting better & better.....get to know more classmates better....

what a day~

2007-02-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

1st thing 1st, i woke up late this morning. jap lesson at 1230, i woke up at 11+, dunno 1120 or 1130, no time to really see the clock. I set the alarm clock to 9 but somehow its of no use....splendid~

Then today I'm emotional, or mood swing, again i might add~ on the way to sch i was like stoning all the way, my face like someone owe me money. then i bcome super hyper in jap class. normally is yong tien who sits beside me who is the most hyper, today i'm more hyper than him. eat wrong medicine liao. keep luffing & smiling thru out lesson. smth is not right~~ then lesson end on the way home, back to the someone-owe-me-money ljb (face)....

met up with sw gb kl at jp at night for dinner. I was early, went to walk ard 1st. went to the pet shop, & bcome emotional again. this particular cat caught my attention. It purr at me....so CUTE!!! but within a split second, my smile was gone. I suddenly felt sad seeing animals being caged, like very ke lian... the cat was like lookin at me to rescue him from the prison... then i went the other side, this dog gave me the same look. haiz.....

Then at night play pool with them, all the way i keep luffing & smiling again. I even took out my jap textbook to read when its not my turn...amazing. wtf is happening?? smth is wrong with me today. Someone pls dun slap me, someone pls kick me~~~ I beg~~

Then on bus, this toopid guy got so many seats dun wan to seat come & squeeze beside me. Keep lookin at me, knn. I suspect he's gay. He somehow manage to start a conversation (in his own world) with me. i dun care or remember wad he said, But he ask this question:" U studying? Poly or....er......or.........ITE???" I said Uni, then he said "WA I TOT U VERY SMALL ONLY~~" *BISH*

nth to say~~~, except that I'm not a gay magnet. period~~~

2007-02-05T01:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes,
I dunno whether I'm right...

Sometimes,
I dunno whether I'm wrong...

Sometimes,
I dunno why i felt this way...

Sometimes,
I dunno whether I shld feel this way...

Sometimes,
I really dunno why i think this way...

Sometimes,
I just dunno wad to say.....how to put it in words...

Sometimes.....
sometimes, i think i'm lost...

maybe its just me, mood swing & all. maybe i'm just tired. maybe i just dunno myself. someone pls slap me......

Jap Level 2 Homework (II)~

2007-02-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

Again, more pattern of stamps from my sensei (teacher). Here are the pics:

textbook's hw:

"Game" hw, 2 of them:

Notice the 2 types of stamps,

The above stamp is for hw with no mistakes, heeezz =) Says: 大変よくできました　(well done)

This is when there are mistakes in hw, says: ガンバリましょう！！(GANBARI mashou!! - 加油！！）

speaking of jap, kanji test next tuesday, together with make up lessons for jap at dates to be decided, cos of the chinese new yr on tuesday. pffft~

speaking of test, maths test on next thursday....damn...

speaking of tuesday, project meeting on next tuesday...

busy busy week next week.....hope next week will be a quick one...

2007-01-31T14:00:00.000+08:00

blogging frm sch lib again...feeling tired & lethargic....damn~~~

pop culture quiz later, read thru but dun understand much shit.. pray for MCQ question, if not i can hang myself liao... so many chim chim terms...

I'm damn bored now, so I'll just post some random vid from my youtube favourite list:

RK House Prank - No PORK! (Full Version) with Subtitles

P.S : no intention of any racism or prejudice to anyone..

College Saga (p.s: for those who played b4 FF series)

Jap Level 2 Homework~

2007-01-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

これは僕の日本語レヴァ二の宿題(This is my Jap lvl 2 homework) ：

The 1st hw i got back from my current teacher... pardon my untidy handwriting, forget abt the no. 1-7.. heez.. just take a look at the top left hand^:

Says: わたし　ふじた　といいます(I am Fujita)

ケータイは９０５１－７７２９です(Handphone is 9051-7729 desu)

ニックネーム　フッペ(nickname: Fuppe)

Suddenly feel like I'm back in pri sch where teacher will chop/stamp your homework with all those cute cute fancy stamps.. =)
面白い先生ですよ！(interesting teacher desuyo!!)

2007-01-28T23:50:00.000+08:00

at this time, this moment, this day, this hr, this minutes, this second.....this wadever!!

my feelings??

confused~ pissed~ "??" all over me... wad to do? wad to think?......

i just dun get it~~~~~

I took back what I've just said........

2007-01-24T12:26:00.000+08:00

ABSOLUTE BOREDOM~~~~~~~~~

2 more hrs to lecture....

typing blog only requires at most 10 min....

sch comp sux....

Physics lecture cures Insomnia....

library is freaking cold.....

canteen food getting worse.....

feeling sleepy...................................

lalalalalalalaaaaaaa.........

Last week 先週...

2007-01-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

...was a busy week. sch timetable officially starts with all the tutorials & lab shit comin in. lab was boring boring boring. luckily got ty, keegan, kw, jinwei, darius & the rest to suffer together with me....bahaha... tutorials were ok, 3 tut grping same as wenqing...which means i wun be bored & got a personal tutor! tutors were so much better than last sem, at least they dun teach "BY EXPERIENCE"!!! Pop culture starts lecturing on all the chim chim terminology, like "what is culture?" pfffttt~~~~ spend most of the time crapping with wenhui & phylicia instead of listening, cos i was in a cheeky mood that day....lol...we even talked abt Borat & I had fun conversing in japanese with wenhui....haha...ok, nth really to do with pop culture...heez.. & Jap lesson was, is, will be, GOOD GOOD GOOD!! hohoho... Teacher is a Japanese I think in her 30s..those young lookin type of auntie, like last sem. Super hyper... she even use those pointing stick, i dunno wad to call it, those long long metal thing u use to point at the whiteboard, & her pointing stick got a cartoonish hand on it, with the index finger pointing out =D.

Saturday afternoon was basically staying at home with her, simple & nice. after that went to the NUS bash thing at st james. long time since i last club.. met up with kl, gb, char, her Uni fren andrew & char's cousin. & char's cousin is like so lady, talk so softly, those very refine type, & omg tall. think she is the tallest in our grp, taller than us guys. feel like i'm so ah-beng-ish beside her. xinz was oso there with her bf & frens... the bash itself pretty sux IMO, anyway bash sux IMO...lol.. But it was normal after that. hurt my neck while watching the stuntman stuntwomen chu pattern by hanging themselves on some cloth thing & hover above us... left the place at abt 1+ 2+ & went to eat then kbox at cine after that until 5+ 6. haha kl gave me the idea to blog the following:

the services we receive on that day was bad bad bad!! 1st was the supper at I-forget-the-name-liao place at cine. the waiters & waitresses doesnt seems to know the menu & wad they are serving to us. maybe is bcos they are blur at past midnight time or maybe bcos kl li siao siao the waitress until she blur & scared of us liao muahahha~~ then they even forget to prepare wad we ordered until we have to go & remind them...so it was like what the hell??? hungry oso wait until full liao... But they compensate us with ice-cream so it was still ok.. char's cousin even personally thank them b4 leaving, how class!!

then it was k-box. erm i dun really know how to describe wad happen, the idea is they charged us for smth that was not really there. so they explained to us that it is part of their package & compensate us with a plate of fruits. -_-... 1st time i eating fruits at 5+ am..... anyway they explained that it was peak period & very busy that day which is true, so they will tend to forget...fair enough, we ain't petty people after all..so no hard feelings =)

so u all can guess what is sunday for me le.......zzZZzzZZzzzZZZ..............................

1st week of sch

2007-01-12T18:42:00.000+08:00

To the tune of "12 Days of Christmas":
(I know Christmas is over but i dun care =P)
so here it goes:

On the 1st day of sch... NTU gave to me:
wake up at 6+
tired & not ready
drag my body
to HSS library
notes photocopying
Physics lecture is boring
teach sec sch thing
damn it damn it damn it
weather is humid
heat is killing me
What....A....Bad....Dayyyyy.......
boy i din miss...the canteen food....abit
& a darn headache to end my day....

On the 2nd day of sch... NTU gave to me:
morning lecture again
Physics still sux
luckily got Material science
which is interesting
finally a good lecture
at least i din sleep
crash Life science lecture
2 hrs of crap
talk grandmother story
non-stop non-stop non-stop
oh boy oh boy oh boy
nobody's listening
add-drop period
from 1530-1700
toopid registration system
STARS hang again
screwed up NTU admin
Someone.....Pls.....SHOOT... EM!!!!
this is not the 1st time.....this is the 2nd time....
welcome to NTU.... my friend....

On the 3rd day of sch... NTU gave to me:
lecture lecture lecture
Physics sux more
Mat sci getting better
lecturer 'chu pattern'
perform 'magic trick'
kudos kudos kudos
break for 3 hrs
slacking slacking slacking
pop culture lecture
supposed be 3hrs
1430-1730
lecture ended early
at ard 1515
sui~ sui~ sui~
yeah yeah yeah
met familiar faces:
Jun An, Wen Hui, Phylicia
Thats....my.....3rd... dayyyy......
Jit Hong said I..changed alot... since my JC days
But my sec sch fren still recognise me...........

NTU's CMI system...

2007-01-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

Today was registration day, & oh boy how right am I.... NTU's admin shit really sux!!!!!

toopid STARS registration system hang for bloody 15-30 mins!!!!!

Kerwei & me was like cursing & swearing...vulgarities & all.... really feel liek smashing NTU's lib comp cos we were at lib... MSN contacts were filled with nicks pinpointing the faults of the system... Some interesting nicks, I shall not mention who:

"login fail count: 27"
which later become:
"login fail count: infinity"

"finally registered my electives, but i dunno what electives i've put!"
this was after the system was back up, & this fren of mine, i dunno wad to say abt him...haha...

ok, at least i got a decent timetable with the core subjects. Now have to wait for the news on those electives on waitlist. its kinda toopid that 8th is sch reopen & right now we still not done with all the admin crap... anyway, really hope i get those electives, esp Jap level 2 & 1 decent Prescribe elective..

2007-01-03T02:24:00.000+08:00

hmm so many things had happened since my last entry, where shld i start?

21st dec:
met jc frens at vivocity. weng changed his hairstyle!! sui~ he dyed his hair color similar to mine last time (not the current fading but not faded color). shuai~ i oso wan to change hairstyle liao... end up eating Spizza which was decent but the soup & drink sux~~ after that went weng hse overnight mahjong 2gether with jiahui & weihan...

22nd dec:
go home concussed... i forgot wad time i woke up. after that went vivocity with her. walk ard & relax at the 'garden', i dunno wad to call it, or 'park'...

23rd dec:
watched 'the holiday' with her at westmall, after that went xiao gui ling. just strolling ard, but it was nice~~ yeap & she 'fed the turtles' although no turtles was seen........ =D

24th dec:
walk ard jurong pt with her, shop aimlessly. relax relax~~ sw & his gf oso at jp, but we din bump into each other in pairs. met up with sw after both of us become 'free man', haha. was join by kl & gb later, went for Death Note 2 which was great!!! L is the man!!!

25th dec:
overnight mahjong again at weng's hse, same ppl, same place.... I've realised i mahjong too much...

26th dec:
had to cancel sw's plan for mj at gb's hse cos i was too shag after last night... paiseh paiseh~~

27th dec:
met up with her. i shall copy & paste =D:

Keywords: Pasir Ris, Cookies, Fish Soup

28th dec:
finally we managed to mahjong at gb's hse. I won $1!!! lol... I'm really mahjonging too much le....

29th dec:
met up with her & her jc frens at IMM cos mindy was flying off to sweden... it was better than expected. more than 1/2 the ppl there i oredi knew beforehand: seetoh, xiaotian, jonson, wei qiang, lua & i knew mindy's bf too... serene was ultra friendly & wei guang bcome my best pool buddy for that night~~ went eat at mos burger & played pool at JEC after that... everyone was high as if on drugs that night & everyone was having a good time~~

30th dec:
went with her to 3 different places with 3 different groups. 1st was with ty, tay xi & jun yong to celebrate ty's birthday. Happy birthday teck yian!! ate at sushi tei. next was her pri sch frens which i shall not elaborate further, & after that gb, sw & his gf... played pool & ate dinner.

31st dec:
went suntec with her, sw & gf, gb, kl, kimhau. the supposedly 'shopping' end up with none of us buying anything... anyway, ate at marche & send her home~. after that was the annual tradition of overnight at someone's hse. this time was jason's. nice, so near my hse...lol... watching TNA wrestling on his SCV...shiok!! Mahjong all the way... I shld really control my amount of mahjong liao...

1st jan:
again concussed at home. sorry to have made someone worried with all my mahjong & overnight stuffs. i woke up at 4, eat 'lunch', watch the newly bought WWE Armageddon VCD which was finally a good show by WWE, went to sleep again at 6 & woke up at 8.... lol..

2nd jan:
watched Borat with her!!! L...O...L... its really damn hilarious!! But it may be offending to some.. My 1st R21 show.

somehow good times & happy moments always seems to past very fast...

I realised most of the songs i like are sad songs, & i think the reason i like them is bcos they make me appreciate happiness more.

Gotta REALLY choose & decide wad electives to take & put on waiting list liao. 4th jan is the registration date. Hope to get the electives i wan, esp Japanese Level 2!!!

I'm a happy man~~~ =D

2006-12-21T17:07:00.000+08:00

Actually this post was suppose to be for ytd....but i was too sleepy & tired to do anything....

...cos i din sleep the night before ytd...
...bcos something gd happen thats gonna change my life...
...its the 1st time i dun hate the rain...
...& i'm glad the rain din stop...

meeting my frens later at je to go vivocity for jc outing... time to go... if not i'll be late... ciao~

What if...

2006-12-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

Some of the random chaotic thoughts that struck me ytd night while i was day-dreaming (night-day-dreaming). Pls do not take them seriously, nor do I intend to cause any offense to anyone or any beliefs. Pls just read for entertainment purpose:

What if one day you wake up, & realise one or more of the following:

.everything around you has become mirror images of what they used to be
.there are still sound but somehow music is totally non-existent in this world
.its the year 2056; yes, you have slept for the past 50 years
.we humans are no longer the dominant species
.eat, sleep & sh*t are no longer requirements of your daily life
.your gender change
.there are no longer male or female gender, but only one gender
.water & gold change their status as "elements" of the world, i.e, we now require gold to sustain life & water becomes a prized possesion
.to add flavour to this, the amount of water & gold remains unchanged
.everything is back to stone age
.fishes (& other sea creatures) now live on land; yes, you wake up from your bed in the water
.humans dun aged anymore; child remains as child, old ppl remains old, adults remain adults.....
.time has stopped at the moment you were awake
.you are no longer a human anymore
.you have totally forgotten everything. wait, what is the thing i'm sleeping on called? a "bed"? can it be eaten?
.everyone starts speaking their own languages & no one understands each other
.you can only control your fate & life in dreams; when you woke up, everything you do does not matter
.you are a clone of someone
.you are the only human left
.or worse, the only living species alive
.maybe even worse, there is nothing around you. yes, NOTHING except space & darkness

.you suddenly realise that somehow, some or all of the aboves may actually happen..........

How to Fake a Happy Christmas...

2006-12-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

2006-12-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

An interesting iPod nano "clothes" that i bought ytd while shopping:

front...

back... biting the "apple"

Watcha lookin at!?!?

NUEEHAHAHA~!

Hmm i dunno how to explain this. A light with fluid & glitter? The package put "Night Light":

those glitters appear to be camera shy...

Finally cleared my room off dust dirt & basically all the mess, in return for a runny nose. Took the whole afternoon to do it @_@. At least now it looks decent enuff, not sparkling clean though.

Today's the 1st time I watched my dad trying to slaughter live bullfrog. Those creatures are really strong & my god slippery.

& some of the things I realised today:

1. its not the tidying of room that is difficult, its where to begin with
2. sensitive nose really sux when it comes to tidying room
3. bullfrogs really look ugly...
4. the whole room is clean except u
5. runny nose has good stamina, it really last
6. ..but they look funny when overturned with legs face up
7. u feel satisfied & relieved after tidying up,
8. except only your nose
9. Crazy Frog isn't awful lookin after all...

The song in the background

2006-12-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

About the background music, its the theme song for the PS2 game Fatal Frame III. Its a survival horror game best played alone at night, with no lights on, & speaker on to full blast. Hehez..

The song title "聲(Koe)", or "Voice", by 天野月子(Amano Tsukiko), is "about a woman who goes insane after the death of her lover, even forgetting his voice", according to this article on WikiPedia. Its No.1 on my iTunes billaboard now =D

Found the Lyrics & PVs for this song. The Japanese lyrics can be found here. The videos are at the end of this entry.

Romanji lyrics: English Translation:

"Koe"                                                                                                  "Voice"

music/lyrics: Amano Tsukiko                                                     music/lyrics: Tsukiko Amano

Tatoeba umi no soko de                                                                                                            If you're still alive, under the sea,
Anata ga ikiteru no nara
Watashi wa nihon no ashi wo kitte                                                                               I'll cut off both my legs and become a fish.
Sakana ni narou

Fukami e ochiru hodo ni                                                                                                        If you come close enough for me to fall into the depths,
Anata ga chikazuku no nara
Hatenai yami wo samayou kage ni                                                                               I'll become a shadow, wandering the endless darkness.
Natte mo ii

Adeyaka ni tadayou watashi no kagerou                                                                 Entrancingly drifting in the air, my shimmering haze,
Kanawanai hibi ni oboreita dake                                                                                   I only remembered the days that weren't granted to us.
Anata wa inai                                                                                                                                You're not here.
Wakatteiru                                                                                                                                       I know that.
Wakatteiru                                                                                                                                       I know that.

Noboru noboru taiyou ga                                                                                                       Rising, rising, the sun
Watashi no basho wo jouka suru                                                                                     Purifies this place.
Aoku kizamu kokuin wo                                                                                                         The seal carved in blue
Nurui nurui kaze ga saratte yuku                                                                                Is stolen away by the warm, warm wind.

Tatoeba kono kotoba ga                                                                                                            If these words ever reach you,
Anata ni todoku no naraba
Watashi no seitai wo toriagete                                                                                          I'll take my living body and throw it away.
Sutetemo ii

Azayakana kizu wo nakushita ima wo                                                                       A present [as in "now" not "gift"] that has erased my vivid wounds -
Nanimokamo ubau anata no ondo wo                                                                         Your warmth that steals everything -
Motometeita                                                                                                                                      I longed for them,
Motometeita                                                                                                                                      I searched for them
Maboroshi demo                                                                                                                            Even though they're illusions.

Kieru kieru nukumori ga                                                                                                      Vanishing, vanishing, your warmth
Watashi no basho wo tsurete yuku                                                                                 Follows me to this place.
Batsu wo nuguu sono ude ni                                                                                                Your arms that could wipe away even punishment -
Dakare nagara nemuri ni tsukitai                                                                                 I want to sleep embracing them.

Noboru noboru taiyou ga                                                                                                        Rising, rising, the sun
Watashi no basho wo jouka suru                                                                                      Purifies this place.
Batsu wo nuguu sono ude ni                                                                                                Your arms that could wipe away even punishment -
Dakare nagara nemuritai                                                                                                      I want to sleep embracing them.
Kieru kieru nukumori ga                                                                                                       Vanishing, vanishing, your warmth
Watashi no basho wo tsurete yuku                                                                                  Follows me to this place.
Aoku kizamu kokuin wo                                                                                                           The seal carved in blue
Nurui nurui kaze ga saratte yuku                                                                                  Is stolen away by the warm, warm wind.

Mushibande yuku kioku no hahen                                                                                  The splinters of memories are rotting away.
Watashi wo fusagu PIASU ga tarinai                                                                           The PIERCINGS that fill me aren't enough.
Warureteshimau boyakete shimau                                                                                I'm forgetting - it's blurring -
Anata no koe ga zattou ni kieru                                                                                          Your voice disappears in the noise.
Mushibande yuku nukeochite yuku                                                                               They're rotting, they're shedding -
Watashi wo fugasu PIASU ga tarinai                                                                            The PIERCINGS that fill me aren't enough.
Atokata mo naku wasurete shimau                                                                                Without leaving a trace - I'm forgetting -
Anata no koe ga zattou ni naru                                                                                           Your voice is becoming noise.

PV (Tsukiko Amano - Koe)                                                          Fatal Frame III Game Trailer

New look~!

2006-12-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

Yes, again, I know its being forever since I last updated my blog, that it has grown algae & fungi on it oredi..

So I'm here to clean it up......

.....with a new look!

Really like the fellow who designed this blog skin. I used most of it, changed the background picture, & added a player on the space on top. Blue forest theme. How u guys & gals think abt it? nice? Do give me good & /or bad comments on it, like easy to navigate anot, soothing to the eyes anot etc blar blar....

I hope the song is not too noisy again, lol... cos I'm really a slut for Japanese Rock music, J-rock in short. Sometimes quiet music puts me to sleep, not against those who like quiet music, but i prefer music with elements of rock in it.

I know its a bit late, but ITS HOLIDAY BABAY!!! I dunno whether there are anot, but to all those still having exams, best of luck & all the way!

Pardon me for all those Japanese words, I just love the way they look on my blog =). Anyway I still cannot be considered to "know" the Japanese language yet cos I'm just a miserable Japanese Level 1 in NTU standard, so excuse me for any mistakes. Taking Level 2 next sem, anyone wanna join me??

For those who wonder wad the title means: "If we can find the rhythm of time, We can fly once again..."

2006-09-30T02:28:00.000+08:00

ok. I realise i haven update my blog for like 2 months, partly becos I'm busy with sch & oso bcos I'm lazy lol..

okie. lets see.. after my redang trip, its slacking all the way until my Uni starts (btw i'm in NTU EEE for those of you who dun oredi know..).

& abt Uni life. One word: TIRED~~!!! It's not that uni life is sian, neither issit boring, or no life. In fact I enjoyed campus life for reasons which I dunno how to put it in words. But being a student is a poor kid, poor as in broke & no money. Even toopid module like Effective Communication (as in teach you how to talk -_-"') have textbooks to buy..*faintz*..

I took up Japanese language as an elective for this sem. Its sooo FUN!! language is FUN!! Not just bcos my jap class got only 3 guys & the rest are gerls, lol, but my sensei/teacher is wonderful. Her name is MAKIO EMIKO. yes, MAKIO. Basically i just love japanese language. In fact for this sem, jap is the only module that i dun treat it as having another lesson, but rather a timeslot for me to enjoy myself after all the engineering stuffs get STUFFED in me.

& damn sian recess is goin to be over soon just like that. realise i wasted alot of time on my toopid lab report which only contribute 1 academic unit... now i'm dead when sch reopen with 3 tests comin at me....

Ya, & my dearest buddy Chang is back in UK again to continue his studies. Went to airport with the rest of our clique to send him off last last Friday. Cant help but think of the good times during sec sch. I was thinking abt this ytd night when i cant sleep: if i can ever turn back time, there will be some things which i wan to change, do the things that should have been done, & most importantly, take back the things which I shld not have done. But heck, i just slap myself & say, life goes on.... Live for yourself & for your love ones.

I may be thinking too much... probably as a result of not enuff sleep. There i go, to bed..until then....

Redang Photos From Teck Yian

2006-07-29T15:19:00.000+08:00

Heres the photos from the beach of Redang, a continuation of TY's Blog:

Our 1st taste of Redang Beach:

Were're finally @ the beach

Redang Firing Squad =)

Various pics of our Sandcastle:

What does it look like?

Thats all our creative juices combine into one =D

Finalized product: the word "SWISS" with coral reefs. Sounds familiar? & of cos "REDANG", & our 4 footprints... =P

But in the end ruin by some stupid kid who dun watch where he/she is goin.. size 4 shoes.. yea a kid... Grrr~~

Image of Sunrise:

Ain't it brilliant?!?

More photos @ TY's Blog. More to come. Until then.

Blog Back from Hiatus HooO~!

2006-07-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

So long nv type blog liao, where shld I start with??

Lets see, I just came back from Redang (actually it was 4 days ago). What can I say man: Sand, Sea, Sun, Beach, Snorkelling = Hella FUN! Scenery was brilliant, Sea was crystal clear, Sand was mighty fine, no pun intended...
Coral Reefs were spectacular, Fish were beautiful. Feel like goin there again in future...

Finally new comp has made its grand entrance into my cosy cave. Finally can use my iPod Nano liao.

Sch is starting soon, I haven even buy stationary yet. Too lazy to shop for them. I need more tops & berms too! & ya bag oso! Not enuff!! Will nv be enuff!! lol.... I wan to go shopping!!

In the meantime, will update more on the redang trip as I manage to get more photos.

Life so far...

2006-06-11T17:00:00.000+08:00

...is not bad, to say the least. 1st time in my life I feel that being bored is also a blessing sometimes! In a sense that it is better to do nothing than to have to do something that u hate. I guess this is what they call the "art of doing nothing". Of cos it is always ideal to be able to do the things that u enjoy everytime. But reality is very different from idealistic thinking, sad to say. Nevertheless, this is a good time for me to really sit down & relax & run some thoughts in my mind, recover frm my "army-sickness", do the things i like, b4 my Uni starts. Yes, alot of u will say its boring, its no life, its "rotting". But when is the last time YOU ever got the chance to relax w/o facing exams, projects, army, work, basically things u dun like? Ask yourself this question..

But make no mistake abt it. Staying at home most of the time doesn't make me an introvert. I enjoy hanging outside as much as staying indoor. I'm also not your average joe type of guy. What u see is not always what u get! Thats why they say looks are deceiving, true indeed...

Finally brother Chang is goin to be back home! In a matter of hours! Got miss us? lol...

& my toopid comp is really failing me. I dunno is my comp's fault or freaky singnet got problem. Always MSN 1/2 way then dc, esp during hot topics or gossiping & bitching so happily then dc..... GrRrRrrr..... cos of this i seldom connect MSN these days. Anyway goin to buy new comp soon i think. My this comp has lasted me since sec 3! its time to change liao man... if not i dunno when it will crash again, & when that happens, arrgh!

End of an Era...

2006-05-31T19:58:00.000+08:00

...& the beginning, or rather the recovery, of my existence in God's green Earth. A picture speaks a thousand words:

Dats right! What u see is what u get. I'm no longer a slave to screwed-up armed forces. ORDed 30th May 2006, collected my precious Pink IC today. End of the month, End of conspiracy, End of the Era. How ironic & appropriate! Nevertheless, lookin forward to the days ahead. DEFINITELY! Without a shadow of doubt.

& mister RSM. u got a problem with my hair? u got a problem with my attitude? u got a problem with me?!?! Well thats ok because I hate u right back, bitch! & 1 more thing, Arr - Ass - Em: There's only 2 things u can do with my ORD - NOTHING & LIKE IT!

Well besides pink ic, they oso give us a ridiculous cd with the unit logo on it. I figure out its a VCD, & just played it to see what the CRAP they offered, maybe can find some memorable moments in my NS life. Well proves me right, & wrong. The graphics & sounds skip like nobody's business once the "play" button is pressed. CRAP INDEED! Cant make out whats goin on on the video. Well, I dunno, dun care, & dun bother!.....

As long as I've ORD-ed, I've ORD-ed.

I will miss Nothing except the very few true Frens that I've never regretted meeting them in my life.

Congrats to all NSman & soon-to-be NSman.

He who laughs Last Always laughs the Loudest!!!

Life...

2006-05-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

Grandma: "Come my girl, let's drink with Ah Ma.."

Granddaughter: "wad's this Ah Ma?"

Grandma: "It's Tea."

Granddaughter: "can i have some??"

Grandma smiling: "Yea, go ahead."

Granddaughter with an awkward face after drinking: "EeewwWW! its Bitter!!"

Grandma laughing: "My girl, its Bitter when u 1st drink it. But u will feel the Sweetness after some time. Go ahead, Take another sip."

Granddaughter take another sip: "HEY! Ah Ma u're right! Indeed there's Sweetness in my mouth after some time!"

Grandma laughing: "My girl. Thats right. & Drinking tea is a lot similar to Life. At 1st things may seems to be Bitter. But fret not. One can look forward to the Sweetness after the Bitter experience....."

I guess the Moral of the story pretty obvious? Adapted from an episode of Channel 8 drama series shown at 9pm. To my frens who are now experiencing a tough period in life, be strong & hang in there ya! The direction of the wind will eventually change. Chang! endure man! Exam's gonna be over soon! See u in 3 weeks time back here! Xinz! be strong like u have always been. U still have us, your frens! & for my frens still in NS, ren ren ren! your day will come!

Here's a song by Every Little Thing (or ELT by fans) that got me hooked up ever since Weitao kept playing it in our bunk back in army days. Credits to U. At 1st i dun really like it, but it gets addictive! It makes my every bad day in camp gd, or at least not so bad a day! So if u dun like it at 1st, keep on playing it. It will grows on U! There's english translation to the lyrics, dunno how accurate, but very meaningful. PengYam! maybe this will change your views of not-slow songs!?!? Hope it brightens everyone's day like it does to mine! Enjoy:

Every Little Thing - Feel My Heart (1st Singles back in 1996)

2006-05-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

Transferred the song here for archive purpose

过火 - Milo Iced (迷路兵)

2006-05-21T18:11:00.000+08:00

Some funny clips I've come across while surfing aimlessly at YouTube.com:

Trying to make meaning out of the song in Chinese. LOL! Seems like a Taiwan production.

& this one's in Japanese. Dun really understand it but the cats looks cute though! HAHA. Who can translate the words for me? =D

2006-05-16T22:24:00.000+08:00

Just happen to like the song sang by Qi;Nobe (使诺鼻) ytd at Superband & went to search for the lyrics. Yeap. Found the lyrics interestingly true as it portrays aspects of our society in a rather storied fashion, so i decided to share it. BTW anyone happen to have Milo Iced's (迷路兵) rendition of 过火 by Jeff Chang, oso sang ytd night? Can send me? hehe. Million Thanks!!!

K here's the lyrics, enjoy:

六甲乐团 - 半工半读

当掉当掉被当掉被当掉
fire掉 fire掉被fire掉被fire掉
被当掉当掉被当掉被当掉
被fire掉 fire掉被fire掉被fire掉被fire掉

烦人的闹钟一响起依照惯例起个大早两眼惺忪还没睡饱
不过没有关系再来眯个五分钟应该不会迟到
天晓得一睁开眼睛时光飞逝已经过了半个钟头
就连刷牙洗脸买个早餐时间都不够搞的自己像一苹饥饿无比的臭虫
接著下来又得面对那忙碌拥挤人山人海瘫痪的市容
就在公车捷运站上大眼瞪著小眼谁也不愿意相让挣个你死我活
终於在夹缝中求的生存还要秉持著敬老尊贤一贯的美德
巧遇天时地利人和的博爱座其实想坐又不敢坐只好眼不见为净

当掉当掉当当掉掉被当掉被当掉
fire掉 fire掉 firefire掉掉被fire掉被fire掉
被当掉~(被fire掉~)
当掉当掉当当掉掉被当掉被当掉
fire掉 fire掉 firefire掉掉被fire掉被fire掉

还真是羡幕那些自由自在整天闲晃
领人薪水的上班族每天起床的时间都一样
但是所受的待遇却又完全不同换我说现在的学生吃不了苦
真的是身在福中不知福
茶来张口饭来伸手嫌不够
可知道出了社会得靠自己孤军来奋斗
哪像你们迟到扣个钟点微不足道
这点小钱简直无伤大雅
我们却是缴了一笔学费来让别人骂
要是错过了考试搞不好又会被学校当
我们成天忍气吞声低声下气
拍人马屁为得只求安定的生活
日以继夜不惜繁忙的工作
不懂赚钱的辛苦就别在那胡乱的叫嚣

当掉当掉当当掉掉被当掉被当掉
fire掉 fire掉 firefire掉掉被fire掉被fire掉
老师别把我当掉
当掉当掉当当掉掉被当掉被当掉
fire掉 fire掉 firefire掉掉被fire掉被fire掉
老板别把我fire掉

想到期末的考试一结束按部就班就得领教那公布栏重修的名单
心里面打个冷颤但是这学期的成绩是否能够欧趴
近来公司裁员的手段除旧布新一昧的又向我逼近
现在仔细想想其实我们遇到的问题
大同小异诸如此类不过也都一样

~Happy-Go-Lucky~

2006-05-16T16:47:00.000+08:00

I'm back! haha...Its being some time since i last blog, so this will be a pretty long post. Well not that i'm busy or wad. I've being happily rotting since my last last post. K some of the things i've done so far in my happy-go-lucky period of my life:

Went out with frens, frens' 21st, movies, pool & lan gaming with old time buddies gb, sw, kl... Went club Momo with gb & xinz on Vesak day's eve. Long time since i club. oso my 1st time being to Momo... the crowd was not too bad, music was gd, atmosphere ok. except for more often than not ppl kept blocking us that we cant dance. shuckz..... I think gb was a bit drunk, ask me go & intro myself to this gal. Well, not my way of doin things, unless he really dares me! haha... but then, somehow i still prefer Zouk than Momo, but was having fun nontheless...

& i've finally bought my keyboard! muahaha! 200+ bucks, cheapest i can find le. big hole in my pocket definitely..... & my frens say i very rich & very willing to spent. not true! i cant find any cheaper one! & i'm still far from being a decent keyboard player yet... I'm so call learning on my own. my left hand still quite retarded. lol.. anyone willing to teach me?!? hehezz....

Went back to camp with wei yong & wei min to do our clearance. haven ord yet but SOON! yeap, 1st time bookin in to camp with completely different feelings. Well, I nv feel so light walking THAT path b4... lol! we stayed in camp until 5+. Meaningful reminiscing chats with my camp mates. most of them are facing lots of burden that the unit is giving them. Well, to all my frens still in army: be strong & endure for this period & then your turn will come. take care & we can always meet up outside. will miz u guyz no doubt!

YEAH! i think Party World KTV is goin to open in my neighbourhood soon!!! From mi house just cross one traffic light only! Heard the rate is cheaper!!! I'll go check it out once its ready for business. & that.......THATS COOL!!! =D

Talking abt singing, the Superband competition has become my fav talent search program so far. & ytd show was the best episode i've watched so far. 2 of my fav band, Qi;Nobe (使诺鼻) & Milo Iced (迷路兵) performance was impressive! They got the highest score by judges! well deserved! But the mood just change when the results were out. I think most of ya know wad i mean. The particular (you know which) group (i dun call them a band) in many ppl's views that shld be out long time ago are still clinging on?!?! Even the judges have choice words for them. & for those who are observant, I think the host Belinda seems pretty pissed off. Like my fren said, lets just see how long they can still overcome the odds!

& the world of professional Wrestling has been getting more interesting lately, & still, in one way or another. Both in WWE & TNA. Shan't elaborate too much considering not many of you watch wrestling. Anything feel free to ask or discuss with me. I think i know almost everything abt wrestling!!!

Well some of my thoughts:

Its just so important to really take care of our body. Nothing beats the Wealth in Health. The human life is just so fragile, we will nv know when our body will just fail us. Nobody wans it to happen to anyone definitely. There are so many things in life worth looking forward to, so many things in life waiting for us to do. I think its really time that i change some of my bad habits...

I believe there's no use in regreting many things. We only lived once. Anything, just do it! but of cos with a logical & sober mind & not with reckless intent. Rather than regreting the things u have done, i rather u regret the things u have NEVER do in the 1st place. Well thats just my opinion. anyone can disagree with me. its perfectly alright. everyone thinks differently, no right or wrong. everyone is different. thats why sometimes pls dun even bother to change anything for anyone. I've learned that no matter wad u do, there's bound to be someone that will always disagree &/or conflict with u. WE CANT MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY. so be yourself. everyone is unique. It is this that makes the world less boring.

Well for with the patience to read until here, I say Thanks for spending your precious time listening to my blabbering. Haha.. Until then...

"The only thing neccessary for Evil to flourish is for Good Men to do NOTHING" - Edmund Burke

What MAY be like...

2006-05-04T17:21:00.000+08:00

A bit pun intended. Referring to the title. What i mean are the things dat i may expect in the coming days of this month May.

A little bit of what i've been doin ever since my previous post 1st. Have been staying home most of the time. Met up with rahman & wee kiat on Sat as weeEEeEEeeEEe kiat just came back frm Brunei. Walk ard & window shopping which almost end up as REALLY shopping which will drive us, esp rahman & me, broke. lol. Luckily wee kiat 'rescue' us in time. heezz...

& most of the days are relaxing at home, listening to my fav music, with DAI's music as my current fav, finally playing Final Fantasy X-2 after yrs since i bought it, & still playing. & thinking abt lots of things too. what i want in life, what i've done in my life & what i'm goin to do in the future blar blar... Well i guess i wun be finding work as of yet. I need time to regroup frm my NS life. & w/o pink ic its quite troublesome too...

& what to expect in May. Two 21st b day celebration coming up. My plan to exercise (which may or may not work out, lol), finally getting a keyboard hopefully soon, spending more time with my family & frens (NS has deprived me of my precious time), watching more TV & also goin out more to get back in touch with the REAL world, & not forgetting the upcoming General Elections.

Speaking of which, this yrs GE MAY be the most controversial yet. I'm no fan of politics, but somehow it does get my attention, though my Jurong Area is a walk-over. But walkover anot, it still WILL affect our country, & us. Mostly watching news with my dad, & seeing how they hold their campaigns, the way they give speeches in rallies, all their actions & things they actually do to draw votes, I cant help but at times really laugh & thinking: MY GAWD! You actually said that! You actually just did that! You dun have to do or said that?!?! Not refering to any particular parties though. All the pin-pointing, making a mountain out of a molehill, claims from sources unknown, pointless actions, I have to admit it does get alot of ppl upset. Why not focus more on the interests of our country & our pple?? Nuff said, follow the news yourself. Saying too much might just get myself into trouble...

Back to my game, until then...

*What Fails To Kill You Only Makes You Stronger*

CLEAR LEAVES LOR!!!

2006-04-28T16:50:00.000+08:00

YES AH!!! lol. finally after every possible shit that i've gone thru, the time has come for me to step back from my army 'career'. The tastes of freedom is just tooo sweet... & oso abit sour, cos i know i will definitely miss my army frens - all the times we had together, instant noodle eating sessions we had, playing UNO (daidee), risk, cursing & swearing together. These are some things i can nv forget...

Well, look on the good side, no more regimentation, no more being treated like slaves, no more this & that. In short, no more bullshit!

& i certainly feel lighter now, literally & figurative to it. As if im not boney enuff, army has successfully make me more boney. & i feel light too as though some pain in the whatever has finally gotten off from me.

Goin to start adapting to civilian life oredi, again thanks to army for its success in turning me into a mountain tortoise. Planning to relax & slack for the time being until i eventually get my precious pink IC, then maybe I'll start to look for jobs...

...I Believe In Desire...

2006-04-27T19:42:00.000+08:00

1 more working day left...1 more working day left...1 more working day left...1 more working day left...1 more working day left...1 more working day left...1 more working day left.....................

I can't wait...I can't wait...I can't wait...I can't wait...I can't wait...I can't wait...I can't wait...I can't wait...I can't wait..................

Goin to See the Light Soon...

2006-04-25T19:20:00.000+08:00

Yes. Skies WILL be brighter. No more clouds covering the light soon. 3 more working days left to clear leave, before i can Do Away with toopid alarm ringing at 5:30am, endless shitsssssssssssss work (yes, many "s"), wearing camo green, inedible food, chasing after shuttle bus, "working" under-paid, "helping" useless ppl, & of cos, reporting to camp.

Alarm will be off. Things I wear will be called clothes. Food will be edible. Bus chase after will be SBS or TIBS. Work will be done to help ppl who appreciate & deserve it. Pay will be appropriately given. &, the only ppl i will report to will be MYSELF!

Goin back to camp will only be on 2 occasion, to settle admin stuff & the final day of resurrection of my identity since its death 2 yrs ago.

Of cos, they can play punk and ask me back for obviously toopid reason when i'm on leave. What to do? Its SAF! simple said...

& I've told this to some of my frens b4: The most exciting activity everyday in camp so far for the past few months has been chasing after shuttle bus. Now thats army life for u!

By now if you are still not aware that I'm so obsessed with getting done with my army life, pls read my past entries. You will understand why.

~Withdrawal in Disgust is Not Apathy~

2006-04-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

Just want to blog out some of my thoughts...

It just sux alot to be blamed for something that you din done. I dun even know what the F...king shit happened, much less done a damn thing. Just bcos someone else did something wrong, doesn't mean u stereotype the group of us! Talk about maturity & sensitivity in handling things. Call me selfish if u want, what mistakes others did has got no business with me. He makes a mistake, he takes responsibility! Not us! case close! Simple enough?!? I shall not go to detail. Those who are meant to know what had happen will know...

2 more weeks to clearing leaves. I will not say finally, bcos in the 1st place this should happen weeks ago. It just gets me upset & frustrated everytime i think abt it. This may be the longest 2 weeks i have to endure...

Its certainly wonderful to be able to meet frens who u haven heard from for quite some time & have a good chat.

& one of the greatest things to do in the world is to sit (actually lying) lazily on your bed, listen to the sound of raindrops outside your window, turn on your favourite music, no Hp ringing or anyone disturbing, & start thinking of things in your life. You might just realise what you have miss out. You will nv know...

2006-04-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

Whoa I'm BROKE!!!

& payday is tml... but oredi spent like no one's business. & Yes! 2 more payday to ord...

Friday was medics' cohesion. Early Bookout! haha! went lot1 for Suki Sushi buffet lunch. Brilliant!! Juicy tender sashimi! Lobster salmon sushi! Oysters! Food Glorious Food!!!! but 23 bucks! =( .. a bit ex but its worth once in a while.. heng senior medic pay 1/2 of it.. hahaha! Then went for k pool. the table sux... rough like shit. the balls nv travel straight. damn ex too.. haiz.. But the place play gd songs! K-able songs! make me & yoong han so gian K-Box! In the end we 2 can't take it & went singing ourselves.. lol.. sing from 5-9pm.. Sing until songz!!! skip dinner cos the sushi buffet still make us full..har....

Saturday went to timah at night with gb, sw & kl to play pool & lan... think we all long time nv go out 2gether to play pool liao. all sibei off-form. haha. quite funny. can play until 3-4 balls go in liao but still free ball, cos white ball go in as well..pengz... then went lan shop to wait for kl 1st after sw arrive. play Gunbound -_-"'... gb's idea.. oso long time nv touch the game le, all anyhow shoot siah. 4 game we win 1 only. lol... then kl join us for Dota. after dat went to sit down to have some drinks & food. I have to say its been a long time since the 4 of us really sit down & have a heart to heart chat, & update each other on wads happening ard us. its was time well spent. & Chang!! we certainly hope it will be not 4 but 5 of us soon! miss ya! see u soon in june!

Today mahjong session with weng, jh & wh at weng's hse. suppose to be at my hse but weng forget to bring his MJ set cos he thought i got at home & i forget to tell him. paiseh man! so wh drive us to weng's hse, with his '7-seater' which jh called. played 1 & 1/4 round. won abt 2+ bucks. lol..

& when are they goin to release Wrestlemania VCD?!?!?!? 1 week since its live event liao. i cant wait anymore!!!!!!

Tml goin to witness another batch of same yr CPL ord-ing. haiz. this will be my 4th time witnessing a group of NSF ord-ing. Cant help but have mixed feelings. & everyone keep telling me it will be my turn soon. so i guess i can do nth but just wait.

Destiny - The Attempted Brainwashing

2006-04-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

& then the story continues, 2 yrs ago, on this day, April 1st, 2004...

They tried their very best to fool all the people into believing their propaganda, nothing but a bunch of lies so scary if anyone could even fall into trusting them. How ironic it is that the day is also known to many as April Fools Day. But of cos, the boy didn't buy into any of the crap that they were saying, not because he is so damn smart, but because it became so bloody obvious that none of what they were saying makes any sense.

The boy was then thinking: are these idiots trying to make us feel better about our destiny? Or are they just thinking that we will really buy into any of the shit that they said? Cos he knew things will turned out otherwise, & 2 yrs down the road, he was proven so absolutely right! They promised a 'fruitful' experience that will be a memorable one. The equation was only 1/2 true: the boy will never ever forget his destiny thanks to THEM !!!

Fruitful huh? After they were done with their nauseating & nonsensical speech, the boy just turned his back on them & laughed so loudly, not openly, but inside his heart. So loudly, so very loudly, cos he knew for the next 2 yrs or so, there won't be much chance for him to smile or laugh so loudly ever ever again~~~

2 Years have passed, 2 more Months to go~

2006-03-31T18:12:00.000+08:00

2 Years ago on this faithful (hateful) day, on a warm Wednesday afternoon, a boy faced his destiny, a destiny that will last for 2 Years & 2 Month. The boy bid farewell to his parents & sister, & soon his identity was lost.

Throughout the 2 yrs, he had seen what the outside world thought they knew abt. Pride & Glory? Not even close. A destiny that seems forever. A destiny that the boy is desperate to be released from. A destiny of exploitation.

2 yrs have passed. 2 more months to go. It seems like a blink to the eye, but the boy thinks that he has been in this destiny for far too long. So long that he feels like a stone age guy on this planet. But nevertheless, the boy is a changed man, for better or for worst, even he himself is uncertain. All the blood, sweat, & tears, is everything worth a single damn bit of it? Again, he is uncertain. 2 months to nirvana, the remaining journey may be longer than it seems to be. But one thing is for certain: on That day, he Will see clearly, everything Will Come to Life!

As of today, the boy hopes, he prays, he wishes, the remaining road is a calm & peaceful one. He is focus on nothing right now except the ultimate price of freedom at the end of the tunnel. With all these in mind, he is ready to get rid of any remaining obstacle at any cost neccesary to get back his priced possession: his identity!

2006-03-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

要.. 你.. 看.. 到..
善变代表对你太感冒
要.. 你.. 听.. 到..
我有我最独特思考
要.. 你.. 看.. 到..
爱情不止华丽的外表
扬.. 起.. 嘴.. 角..
永远猜不到的下一秒

Unknown Feelings~ Deja Vu???

2006-03-23T19:44:00.000+08:00

Yes! Finally my leaves has been approved! April 28th... my last working day. Only be back on 15th May to settle some admin stuff & of cos 30th May, the day itself. Nth really much to be joyous abt since all of the guys i know who ORD the same period as i do are oredi clearing leaves, if not end of this month... i have every reason to complain but heck, since life sucks too much in NS oredi...

Its sucks even more to wake up in the morning & suddenly caught with blocked nose that makes your head aches like crap, only to realise the previous night that u slept early enuff & are in gd health condition readying for the next day....

Have u ever met someone that u dun know but deep down inside, u got this strong & weird feeling that he/she has appeared in some parts of your life b4??? In your dreams? Your past life? Even DEJA VU cant completely describe this feeling?? Even simple things like waiting for a bus at an interchange, u just glance ard, everywhere are strangers, & b4 u knew it your vision is focus on that someone. It doesn't matter whether its front view, or side, back, wadever degree... U feel U KNOW HER!!! & when she turned ard, there's a sudden urge to call out her name but something just stuck in your voice that u are dumb for that moment (nt to mentioned nt knowing her name which is obvious). Then u told yourself its just guys ogling at gals which is not a big deal actually. But you are confused at the same time cos u know this feeling(s) is not infatuation, neither it is love at 1st sight, she's not even drop dead gorgeous nor your dream gal!!!! & everytime when she's ard the feeling(s) just get stronger. You are more convinced that u feel u know her, but logic prove just as strongly otherwise each time. Her eyes seems to be unveiling an untold story... Can someone enlightened me? Or someone just Slap me pls....

Tmr is OFF!! Woohoo! No need crawling up early in the morning!!

Counting down to the day, the Main Event. The road to nirvana is beginning soon~

2006-03-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

Update on this week so far:

Tues-Thurs: Nth interesting, in camp basically doin the same thing everyday. Thurs had a quite shiong day since a very long time... Building a structure known as BCS under the blazing sun frm 9am-2+pm, including packing up everything. I'm almost burnt!

Fri: gb got nights off so he jio me & xinz to go causeway pt for dinner. mum cook le so join them after my dinner. walk ard, play arcade. think gb & i both like shag out le, xinz say we like no energy like dat. lol... gb oso haven fully recover frm his fever... in the end is xinz making the decision to play wad game. haha...dunno where she got all the energy frm.....

Sat: Shopping!! with sis. Buy & Buy & Buy... so conclusion? Broke! Think most of us had such experience b4: u see something nice then u buy, only to realise dat its nt on your shopping list or wish list or agenda of things to get... I guess dats wad they call impulsive buying?? so dat makes me a rather impulsive buyer... Sis treated me to lunch & dinner. dinner at crystal jade macau at bugis junction! Thanx sis!

Sun: At home resting... & typing this blog!!

I really hope & pray my ord date come soon, just for time to pass faster during this period, cos i oredi had enuff of army & its 'efficient' way of running things!!! I really dunno wad i will say to those hated commanders on dat day...

2006-03-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

Terrible weather these past few days... Hot, humid, nt raining (except only some areas).

I guess weather affects one's mood. Bright sunny summer weather... sounds gd? think again!

Cant take the heat & afternoon went to cut my hair short. i guess too short again! planned to have it done next week but hell... at least its more coolin now!

Have been gourging on ice creams ever since dad bought a whole freezer full of frozen heaven frm a warehouse sales! thanx dad! good for the current weather... gd anytime!

Chang!! enjoying yourself in UK? snow fight!!! how i wish snow in SG! muahaha! well, maybe nt.. have to be careful wad i wish for!

Recently read on newspaper abt a loser abusing a poor little kitten to the point dat its eyes protruded out & eventually died. One of my fren's blog mentioned similar case. Its just damn PATHETIC!!! How can anyone commit such an hideous act?? Pleasure & Fun out of torturing helpless victims?¿? Well Mr Toughguy, have FUN & PLEASURE in PRISON!!!

The Road to That Day~

2006-03-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

I can see the finishing line~

'Metalingus' - Alter Bridge

I've been defeated and brought down
Dropped to my knees when hope ran out
The time WILL come to change my ways!...

On THAT day, I see clearly, everything WILL come to life!
A bitter place, and a broken dream
And WE'LL leave it all, leave it all behind...

I'll never long for what might have been
Regret won't waste my life again
I won't look back
I'll fight to remain!...

On THAT day, I see clearly, everything WILL come to LIFE!
A bitter place, and a broken dream
And WE'LL leave it all BEHIND!!
On THAT day, its so REAL to me!!
Everything WILL come to LIFE!
Another chance, to chase a DREAM
Another chance to FEEL
Chance to FEEL ALIVE!!!...

The Day is NEAR...

Gonna miss those Times~

2006-03-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

Q: "Is there anything in ur NS life dat u will miss?" A: "Absolutely NOTHING!"

That will be my reply if couple of months ago u ask me this Question.

However the answer to the question has been changed to: "Frens... & nth else."

...Frens who i hav made throughout this journey...frens who we share our sorrow & laughter...frens who walk thru hell & heaven with me...frens who we do things together & slack together...frens who i can rely on...frens who I care...frens who are my life...

Happy to see them ORD-ing & embarking a new chapter in their life, or to others & myself who think slightly differently, ending of the $h+ that is holding us back... On the other hand, feel sad too dat there will be less chance of spending time 2gether. I think dats life ba... Lots of 2gether, many more seperations...

Anyway, to all my frens who are ord-ing: This is it! Finally its ending! Civilian life again! All the best & take care guyz! Lets keep in contact! Be nice to each other! =)

2006-03-06T05:26:00.000+08:00

tired~~~ tired~~~ tired~~~ tired~~~

Just came back frm Mahjong session @ gan's hse. Have been Mahjong-ing Saturday & Sunday night there... 2 consecutive nights, overnight till morning. i'm feeling the effects right now. Cant wait to pounce on my bed if nt for waiting for my hair to dry up... but no regrets man... nt a single mj session i have ever regretted! tired is tired, but so is the Fun!! Enjoy soooo very much playing with his dog gigi too!! Cute to the Xtreme.. feel like bringing his dog home.. even he suggested tat but cant la, tink my mum will scream @ me! my parents not fond of animals at home, & my sis nt a fan of dogs either. haha~

tink i shld really take care of my health liao... 3 nights of nt sleeping early; friday also went home late cos of midnight movie, & sat & sun night basically NOT sleeping until next day morning, at the time when my parents wake up. tink i'm nt young le, getting older...haha... my body has taken its toll....

Nuff said, my bed is hungry for my warm embracement....

~The Story of Missing Someone~

2006-03-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

~Snow Flower~

You reach out with your hand
And hold me through the night
It's as if our two bare hands hold
All the mysteries in the sky
Nobody says a word
Even stars forget to shine
But with you walking beside me
I can reach for heaven's high

Oh that time
Never forget that time
With your hands
You put your heart in mine
If you asked
That I only live that day
Your love made me feel so alive
I would not decline

Every moment that I have
I always think of you
I won't let you leave from my mind
Even though you're not here this season of love
You are in my heart and that is enough

All the moment that
I have I think of you
All I want is to hold you close and say
Won't you please be with me this lonely day

We were walking side by side
In streets of silver white
And the footprints of our memories
In my heart, are very alive
From the moment that we met
To our very final night
I don't have any regrets
Having had you in my life

Love passed before I cried before
but always hid my tears
It was your tender love that gave me hope of a new life
And when you're in love
It's hard because
There's always a goodbye
Don't ask what the future holds
Because I'll wait for all time

Every moment that I have I think of you
Our last photo sits on my window frame
This is the moment I must say goodbye
And I hope that you will do the same
As I say goodbye this lonely day

2006-03-04T17:21:00.000+08:00

Hav nt been in the best of health lately. Just recovered frm sore eyes & the recent on & off block nose is just plain irritating... tink weather nt gd ba. must take care peepz! drink lots of water~

Suppose to went shopping with sis today one... but both of us cant wake up early! lol. by the time i wake up oredi 3+ pm liao, so decided to go next time. wahaha.

ytd went JP with xinz, gb, sw, kl for Final Destination 3. soo much better than most horror flicks. The build up to the story was Great! abit gory for some. not for the weak of heart... we watched the 1135pm show cos gb's unit tekan them then let him book out late. then 1/2 way thru the show kl was like saying: wa lao at this time watch this show, later cant sleep.. lol.. ya..better to watch not at night ba esp for some. For those who haven, go catch it! its money's worth!

b4 dat met up with xinz 1st cos she wanna eat siam kitchen. haha. she soo craving for thai food. we were aiming for the buffet promotion but JP one DUN hav!!! only lot 1 got. sad~ haha. then kl join us for a drink. then comes sw & we go arcade play soem game 1st. played the bishi basha game, hit until my whole hand red. lol. i sucks at the game man..keep losing. haha..guess i reaction slow. kl & xinz pro siah. keep on winning! after dat gb join us & went Mac to hav some drink & food b4 the movie.

Recently i'm so in love with instrumental version of songs, esp piano ver one. just bought the Eric Chen 陈冠宇 album. haha help them advertise abit. 13 piano tracks of classic K-drama, including 对不起我爱你, 冬季恋歌, Full House... & Joi Chua's 蔡淳佳 vocal in both chinese & english ver of 对不起我爱你 are my fav...

Craving to play the keyboard...i am grade nothing in piano for ur info. hav been playing with wei tao's keyboard in camp until he brought it home since clearing his leaves & subsequently ord-ing in March. Nt considered a keyboard player, just playing it for leisure. Thinking of buying a nt so ex one & playing it at home as & when the feelin comes~~~

I'm Startin to LUV 8-5!

2006-03-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

Well.. the title says it all! Probably the ONLY best thing my unit has ever done for us: letting us stay out. I will be 8-5 (actually 7-6) all the way till end of APR end, then shld be clearing leave on most of MAY if I still manage to scrimp out enuff "uneaten" leaves... The sumbitch known as my OC has a very fond fetish of consuming our leaves. Imagine some assclown comin to your table & eating the food dat u spent your hardearn $$ on. Dat my OC for you. nuff said.

A little bit of update on this week so far:

SUNDAY: 'Fermenting' at home... Parents went for one day tour in m'sia, forget which part. so left my sis & I. She was craving for delivery for dinner. So called Pizza hut, ordered one forget wad meal liao..for 2.. got 1 reg pizza 4 wings & 4 weird tasting breadstix. the pizza was Great! black peppered chicken. her idea. kudos to her! but everything could nt really fill us up. Then parents came back. Taada!! MORE FOOD! rest is history...

MONDAY: Receive unexpected sms frm sis askin me to look for her at Jurong pt. was on way home via JP & she was there Q-ing to collect her parcel so went there. Bought WWE No Way Out VCD! Muahaha! =P then went to find her. PengZ~ the queue is freaking long. & a auntie at the counter dunno wad stand there very long.. tink cant find her letter parcel or dunno wad. the whole queue nt moving for 1/2 hr. zZz..... collected her parcel, which is another clothing frm her forever endless online shopping, went to walk ard, buy something, collected her Levis Jeans which went for altering, 3 OF THEM! she has no qualm in spending.....then went home. We wanted to watch Campus Superstar! luckily able to catch the 1st contestant singing. then Theresa, Superb! She sang F.I.R's Love*3. NICE! got the highest score! cant agree more. think if i were to sms to support i will vote for her ba... incomparable voice wif a decent & pleasant look.

TUESDAY: Went JP after book out to alter my own Levis jean, 1 ONLY! lol... its was a gift frm my sis after her 2nd payday. actually plan to buy me 1 after her 1st, but treat frens here & there, spent elsewhere, u all know la, 1st payday impossible to save 1.. haha. then buy some snacks, saw very tempting instant noodles, very gian. bought quite alot home! got nagging frm mum. haha~

WEDNESDAY,today: got my off pass for tml's NTU medical checkup! 9:30am can leave camp for tml le! SHI-OK! then no need to come back until tuesday morning. again my OC make us clear our very dearest leaves for friday & monday. Actually my other 3 army mates goin NTU wif me tml all of us scheduled checkup is nt tml. but since friday clear leave, & seeing tml will have lots of shit awaiting us, so just took the chance, siao pian my encik, say die die must go. he write off pass for us. Wahaha! APPROVED! off to med checkup & Tuang-ing tml!!

Then today nights off. but my sir make me do medical cover for their bo liao run. kao..ended damn late. my army frens all left le. then for one of them, peng yam, this is his suppose last nights off wif us. he's ORDing in APR & clearing leave all the way le. So he agree to treat a few of us a meal. they all left 1st & waited for me at Lot1. the officer's finish running le but their training haven end but my sir gd enuff let me go 1st lo. then my si ren OC lao turtle de..i pack up my things he shout at me: "AYE HAVEN FINISH Y U LEAVE!" Wa on FIRE.. DAMN PISSED! i ren, firmly tell him my sir let me go liao, then just walk off. abit attitude la but i oso dun really care liao. he oso nv say anything. went to bunk, almost snap. machiam hurricane went pass my floor. cupboards, beds & shoes everywhere, flakes of dried paint all over the floor. actually kinda knew it cos the contracters were painting our bunk but din expect it to be so horrendous! Cursing & swearing thru while frantically seraching for my shoes. cant blame the painter oso they just doin their job for a living. but cant help just cont curse swear. wash up, change then went lot 1 find them.

haha reach foodcourt there they almost finish eating le.. lol.. they hungry also la so nvm. peng yam suppose to treat us wu xiang one, but dun have. so all eat ownself. i buy noodles & he treated me la. drinks on him too. then walk ard, peng yam & chin heng went to play X-Box -_-"'....... haha. they crazy abt winning eleven soccer. wei yong & me go arcade. dunno wad to play oso. go & play Mahjong! wahaha. he watch me play. 1 credit play until shuang. then off i go to home & they bookin in back camp cos they nt staying out. camp too far away for most of them.

reach home, abit hungry, eat again! lol.. a note to peng yam if u are lookin: just now the food was REALLY enuff for me i swear! then after the drink cant take it. but u know la. i keep on eating one. by the time reach home hungry again. haha! dat my style.

Dats so far tis week.. Probably watching Final Destination 3 on friday wif xinz gb they all...heard its a gd one. until then...

2006-02-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

Not too bad a week... have got things to kept me occupy rather than staring & smiling to myself..

Just now went to Westmall with gb & kl.. at 1st plan to meet at JP for dinner as said in kl's sms..then went to westmall cos they buying phone. NOKIA N70!!!! wah lao i also gian lo.. singtel got this promotion like u buy 2 3G phone then each phone -$100. Somemore with plan the price only $398 after the promotion!! But wasted...my current plan only 8 mths old.. :(:(.... sad tio lo!!! haiz~~~~~~~~ So no choice WATCHED them buy the phone.. then si gb gek me..use the phone take my pic, also say later he & kl video call each other for me to see.. lao turtle de... lol..Then after dat ask sw wan to join us for pool or lan he say he cmi.. so go home lo...basically today like a bit wasted trip..haha!

But friday was GD!! went KBOX!! actually din plan for one.. Was in camp abt to standby area then receive a sms frm xinz ask me wan to go eat KFC at night. haha. she also got jio gb.. but he bookin out only at 7pm.. after i booked out called her..then we both dunno where to meet 1st then my camp got direct bus to lot1 so i suggest meet there. She's ok then she say go there sing Kbox! Haha! steady! Finally after a horrible day in camp, got something dat pays off... Went KFC to have dinner..my sun nu treated us.. Then its K-ing time!! sing frm ard 9 to 2.. SHIOK!!! Songs also quite updated.. Sing until like midnite we all jitao like no voice..anyhow whack liao.. gb go & purposely sing off tune then change the words of english songs into chinese hokkien.. Haha.. pengz~ All of us have fun! Long time nv sing le so it was enjoy lo...Went home straight away concuss in bed..

Tml shld be stayin at home ba..maybe goin gb hse for Mahjong! Also a bit broke le...considering so many things to buy - so little $$. Have to get new contact lenses le my last & current pair expiring soon. Think of getting color contact, brown or blue. still considering..

Mixed Emotions

2006-02-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! Finally! Bookin in tml morning! Wahaha! Ya i noe most of U will think i'm crazy. I mean, which normal guy out there will be so ecstatic to book in right? Actually, i'm nt really THAT excited to return to camp, but i'm also glad that i did!

Confused to this point? Well have been spending the last few days at home basically doin nth & rotting away... Maybe a reason for this blog's existance. haha! My company have made us all clear leave, our OWN LEAVE, for friday monday & today, which means i've been away frm camp since thursday night. Suppose to go out on Saturday night but i think everyone's tired; gb back frm guard, kl back frm camp too, sw needless to say...must be in la la land with gf. Luckily that night my hse downstairs CC got some kind of dunno wad celebration, machiam chingay parade in the heartland. Din go down, was using my comp when out of nowhere heard gunshot-like sound & next moment my sis was sprinting to the kitchen. Was thinkin wad in the world just happen? Went to kitchen, saw fireworks...Yes u heard me rite, FIREWORKS!!!
This is the 2nd time i watched fireworks at the comfort of my home kitchen! Sounds Whack-off rite? Was nt able to see very clearly...but nevertheless..it was brilliant! At least it brightens up my day..err..night...

Also have been thinking of alot of things these pass few days.. i guess when one is bored thats wad happen. I rem kl told me one thing: actually NS also nt bad.. carefree, spent time with army frens... Yeap..i used to hate NS ALOT! & i still do, but nt as much le.. Wad he say is nt wrong. carefree as in u need nt worry abt income, study, stress at work. book out also no homework or wadsoever.. Somemore u can spend time with your camp mates who have gone thru think & thin with u. So actually its nt that bad after all.. But get me right, I will ONLY miss my frens there. PERIOD! nt the place, nt the environment, definitely nt most of my superior, nt the endless saikang...NOTHING!..just frens dat walk thru my NS life with me... & just to take this time to address my OC: He can take his rank & SHOVE IT!!!

Okie, time for bed. Got medical centre duty tml. Until then....

1st Time for Everything

2006-02-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

My 1st time bloggin!! haha..

Was just lookin at some of my frens' blog & suddenly, just suddenly, the idea of bloggin came up my mind. I thought it is a good channel to express my thoughts & concerns & basically just shoot out wadever i feel like getting out of my heart & mind... Also some of my close frens may know tat i actually do like bitching abt anything..ANYthing! good, bad, happy, sad, positive, negative, inside, outside, moon, sun,... ok.. i think i'm starting to sound lame.. But it's actually kinda a gd feeling to be able to voice out whatever u feel like voicing out.. Its a method for de-stressing?!? At least it works for me!

Ya another reason for setting this blog up is for my longtime fren & bro WeiChang who is in UK pursuing his degree. A place on net to keep in contact...

I could even use my blog to countdown to ORD! yeah u heard me rite.. previously GB had oredi ask me to set up a blog of my own but i told him i've no time to post cos busy with NS.. Now ORDing soon..somemore staying out.. got time & things to post le..

Dats my 1st post... expect more bitching in the future! haha..